i've been thinking really much lately.. like super duper much hahaas.. about alot of stuff.. for example.. frendship, school life, campus l0ls so complicated.. wells.. and ii realised how important campus superstar's life has become for me..

like ii have mentioned b4.. there was never a time when i'm going for a campus event.. i'm not seem smiling and everything.. i'm 100% there laughing my head off cos the brilliant jovial chaps of campus never fails me! =)) and i'm very very very grateful for that.. for example today hahaas.. we went taking our VT for monday.. in pasir ris park l0ls! yuyang always had his pants halfway falling off, renfred always making fun of ppl.. (diaoo) for eg. teresa, den we always get a good laugh outta it, altho smtimes quite mean lar.. hahaas so many more and ii shant elaborate (especially the *hehs* nvm =D) wells.. this 3 months have been fulfilling becos of their existence, this competition's existence, my existence, as well as your existence, all my fans out there, everyone who calls in for me to keep me in the comp.. it has helped me so much, to understand dat no matter wad ii do.. fun and laughter can still be found, no matter how depressing one can be, or no matter how tired you'd be =))

i've been thinking about my relationships with my frens.. it's like.. alot of my frens have turned into fans.. ppl are drifting away from me just becos i'm like 'superstar'.. hais.. it's weird you noe.. it's always that uu gain smth then uu start losing alot of things too.. at the same time.. wells.. my close frens are no longer near me.. and at times ii wonder should ii have joined this competition to let this happen to me.. this.. sorta thing that separates me and my frens.. hahaas.. ii think..

and then ii think how committed ii am to my frens, and how much ii am willing to give away.. just for them, as if they are like my loved ones.. but find out how foolish ii am to do so when most of them wouldnt do the same as wad i'd do hahas.. ii wonder why.. it's always like i'd end up laughing at myself for doing alot of things.. alot of things ii think shouldnt' be taken for granted.. hahas..

you noe.. ii always thot ii might neglect my frens cos of this competition ya.. so ii usually take the initative to talk.. but sometimes it ends up as if they're busier than me.. to even care bout my life.. hahaas.. these are all so very personal stuff.. ii shant continue writing bout it.. lest ii get emotional yea..

altho there are alot of things ii would regret for having joined this comp.. it has taught me alot too.. and helped me grow up thru alot of things.. =)) ii guess it's time to let go.. let go of the child that ii have been like forever.. and move one from here =)) it would be my pleasure..

`zhiyang.